Beauty spot

Last week I heard an extremely beautiful little girl complaining about an adorable little mole on her cheek. I piped in and said that I thought it was beautiful but she disagreed. She said she could never be pretty because of her mole and that 'no pretty girls have moles'. I told her that someday I would prove to her that she was wrong. Today is that day.

Exhibit A- Mandy Moore

Exhibit B- Marilyn Monroe

Exhibit C- Eva Mendes

Boom.

There was a point where I had to decide between two things: to either crawl into bed and to never come out, hiding behind my sadness and my fear or to just hit the ground running and do whatever I could to make life better. I decided to keep going running, head first, into the storm because I know that it can't rain forever. I just need to remind myself of that every morning... Here's to a happy New Year!!!

Just tryin' to keep this smile on my face!

"I wanna hold the whole wide world"

As you may or may not have noticed, my blog looks a little different than it did before. I did this because I wanted it to reflect some other changes- changes in me and in my attitude. Before these physical changes in my blog, my writing here really had no common purpose. It was all just a bunch of random and jumbled thoughts. But, I have been through a lot in the last year and I have learned a lot too. I am a whole new person. I have a new attitude and a new outlook on life. For a while, I wasn't really sure what that outlook or attitude was but I could feel something burning inside that I never had before. Then one morning while I was getting ready for work, a song came onto my iPod that I'd listened to a thousand times before but for the first time, I really listened to the words and I realized what that burning was.

"I wanna hold the whole wide world

Right here in my open hands

Maybe I'm just a little girl

A little girl with great big plans

...

I'm gonna live a crazy dream

Impossible as it may seem

Doesn't matter what the future brings

I'm gonna live a crazy dream"

After really listening to those words and letting them become my new motto in life, I've been learning to do what I want and to follow my dreams. For so long I was pushing away those dreams or desires for "smarter" things or because I thought my mother wouldn't approve. I was always saying "later" or "someday" and trying to move on. If there's one thing that I've learned from everything that I've been through in the last year, its that you never know what's around the corner or what the future's got up its sleeve. So, if you've got some 'crazy dream' or some wild and far-off goal, stop worrying and make it happen! There's no time like now and there's no time to waste!

So, if you didn't catch on, the new purpose of me writing on this blog is to learn to follow my own dreams and to encourage you to follow yours.

To see the full lyrics and the music video of "Whole Wide World" by Mindy Gledhill go here. 

the more boys I meet...

"Why can't they be like the ones that mean everything to me

The warm and loyal, open and friendly

It's not like I'm not trying

'Cause I'll give anyone a shot once

I close my eyes 

And, I kiss that frog

Each time finding

The more boys I meet the more I love my dog"

I'm still in love.

Ollie's first week of adventures

Ollie has had a crazy first week at his new home! I seriously am obsessed with him. I adore him with all my heart. I left him for the first time today and literally cried. He's like my first born child. He's been so perfect though. I love him!!!

First bath! He didn't like it very much...

Playing with his new best friend Harley

This is Ollie's most common activity of choice... Mel's guess
 is that he's got a  sleep disorder. He is always sleeping.

Oliver!

I haven't blogged in a long time. A lot has happened that I'm not going to bother telling the internet about. But, today, something that is definitely blog-worthy happened. I bought a puppy! He's my very own and I love him to death! He's a black lab and his name is Oliver. I call him Ollie. He's seven weeks old. He likes to sleep a lot. And cuddle. Tonight, I put him to bed in his kennel and he went right to sleep. He's going to be quite the spoiled puppy. I love him!

Oh! And that fulfills #10 on my bucket list!!